Here we go again..........

On Monday, February 7th Jacob had a follow-up appointment at the peroidontist. It was supposed to be a check-up to make sure he was healing ok followed by an appointment 2 weeks later for a final cleaning. I had a feeling it wasn’t going to be the second to last time we were in this office. Unfortunately I was right. Dr. Neils examined Jacob’s lower gums closely and made the decision to redo the graft. The first graft didn’t stretch as far as he would have liked. I could see the look on Jacob's face and I instantly felt bad for him. All I could think was here we go again. I could tell this wasn't an easy decision for Dr. Neils as he looked at me and asked what I thought. I told him he would know best. As much as I'd hate to see Jacob to go through this again I knew I didn't want him to deal with it when he got older. We walked out and made the appointment for Wednesday, March 9th. Once we got in the car, Jacob let it out. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen him cry that hard. I felt helpless, all I could do was reassure him it was going to be ok and that we’d get through it. Poor kid. Here we go again………..

Puzzle Time

MaKena got a giant princess puzzle for Christmas from Uncle Justin and Auntie Laura. To say she loves it would be an understatement. We’ve put this puzzle together a million times in the last month. The first several times I’d have to help her with the whole puzzle but now I just help her with the edge pieces and the rest she can figure out on her own. Its fun watching her put the puzzle together and seeing the excitement on her face when she’s finished. She’s so proud of herself. The little things…..

Talk about a cheesy grin! She was proud of herself and her puzzle.

Seven years...........

Seven years ago today I lost the most important man in my life. It’s hard to believe you’ve been gone that long. I miss you so much. There are so many new things I would love to share with you and so many other things I didn’t get the chance to share before you left. If I only knew what was about to happen 7 years ago……………. Not a single day goes by that you’re not on my mind. As the years have gone by the pain has gotten a little easier but there are those days that the grief hits like it was yesterday and I’m reminded that you're not here. You have 6 beautiful grandchildren. Unfortunately they won’t get to know you personally but we will share our stories and memories of you with them.

Jacob has grown into such a nice young boy. He’s 10 years old already and in the 4th grade. He’s growing up way too fast. Mallorie is 6 and in 1st grade. She was born a few days before your birthday. Emma will be 4 in March. She is such a card. She always has something silly to say. Karisa will be 4 in July. She is one of a kind and keeps her mom and dad on their toes. MaKena, she’s the youngest of the 3 year olds, she just turned 3 in December. She loves princesses and her big brother. Gunnar is 7 months already. Finally, another boy among all the girls. You would be so proud of all of them.

I know you’re up there looking down on us and I sure hope I’m still making you proud. I’d do anything to have you back for one more day. I know you are in a better place, pain free and I’m thankful for that. I love you so much and miss you so much more………….